Sunday, May 10, 2015

Over thinking.....

Its funny how they say when you find out your pregnant, how your views in life change.
I'm freaking out and i don't know how to react.
My emotions take over and I'm like a tornado roaming through the country side.
I'm excited you see, but I'm terribly nervous.
I've never had a child, I've never raised a child, and I've never thought that i would be this insane.
My friends laugh at me and tell me I'm going to be a helicopter mother.
I'm scared to raise my child in the society that we live in, but then i think and say "HEY!" I'm alive.
Although things are worse now then when i was growing up, i cannot allow my fears to destroy my future.
Although i am terrified to allow my child to go out in the world, i cannot allow my child to be robbed of a childhood.
My baby hasn't even seen the world yet, she/he will not until 6months from now, but like i said I'm freaking out.
Its a funny thing when your going to be a parent.
Its a funny thing when a part of you is walking around in the world.
Its a funny think when your pregnant and all you can do is over react, over think, and over analyze every single thing.