New Mom Life...

Being a new mom has many rewards.

It also has many challenges.

It is the feeling of not being able to think about your self. 

To not care about the things you once thought were important to you.

You lose yourself, who you were....

Having your heart out of you is the scariest thing that could ever happen.

Although he can't walk yet, the fear of anything happening to him is nerve racking.

If he chokes, when he's asleep.

No new mom ever sleeps, its not part of the process.

While baby and dad are sleeping, we are watching over them...

Yet i would never change the joy i feel when i hold my baby.

How my husbands face lights up when he sees his son.

The way they bond, the way we bond...

So my life as a new mom is pretty amazing!!

Over thinking.....

Its funny how they say when you find out your pregnant, how your views in life change.
I'm freaking out and i don't know how to react.
My emotions take over and I'm like a tornado roaming through the country side.
I'm excited you see, but I'm terribly nervous.
I've never had a child, I've never raised a child, and I've never thought that i would be this insane.
My friends laugh at me and tell me I'm going to be a helicopter mother.
I'm scared to raise my child in the society that we live in, but then i think and say "HEY!" I'm alive.
Although things are worse now then when i was growing up, i cannot allow my fears to destroy my future.
Although i am terrified to allow my child to go out in the world, i cannot allow my child to be robbed of a childhood.
My baby hasn't even seen the world yet, she/he will not until 6months from now, but like i said I'm freaking out.
Its a funny thing when your going to be a parent.
Its a funny thing when a part of you is walking around in the world.
Its a funny think when your pregnant and all you can do is over react, over think, and over analyze every single thing.